I’ve written for twenty six days in a row. Some days like yesterday, I haven’t had much to say or haven’t been in the mood, but I have committed to this endeavor, and I plan on sticking to it! Only a few more days to go and I can cross off another thing on my 101 in 1001 day list!
Today for those of you who are in the United States, it is Thanksgiving day. I have always LOVED holidays, but this year is the first year I find myself floundering, and forcing smiles. I don’t know if it is depression, but now I understand how the holidays are hard for some. It is hard to split the holidays with my only little child, the kid that was my whole world for all these years. There are parts of his childhood that will not be mine to share now. And that makes it hard. My extended family is continuing on their traditions that I have known my whole life without me. That is hard. But I am creating new traditions and am so grateful for that what I DO have. It is humbling to realize what you DO have when you are faced with so much loss. And although the loss is great, my life is abundant, and waiting to be realized, recognized, and celebrated.
Tonight we giggled around the table as the animals begged for turkey and table scraps. Logan donned his homemade turkey hat, and we each shared what we were thankful for. I have so much to be thankful for. I am grateful for this little space on the internet, and those of you who stop and read or whose words speak directly to my heart. I am grateful for the love and kisses and late night snuggles. I am grateful for our health and jobs and a warm bed. For libraries, sunny days, and people who I think are so amazing that they might be magic. I am grateful for this family.