Something happened this weekend where suddenly I could see things clearly. I regrouped and decided that I’m taking the wheel and driving my own damn life. So what about the other stuff. It’s not meant for me. So, I am starting with the very basics, self care. Taking time for myself, appreciating this life I… Continue reading Flip it and reverse it
In the past two weeks, I have probably worked out two times. I went from working out six days a week to basically no days a week. AGAIN. My depression was….is swallowing me up. The bags under my eyes grew and I was sleeping my life away when I wasn’t with the little one, but… Continue reading The Struggle is Real
On my post that I wrote about how I plan to change my life, I received a comment. It went EXACTLY like this, “This may be a dumb question, but as I was reading this blog, I noticed something. You say you are a hypochondriac, then u list OCD, Anxiety, depression etc, being a hypochondriac… Continue reading Labels are for jars…. and insurance companies
I kind of fell off the Blogmas train. I guess after writing thirty nine days straight, I needed a break. I’ve been not feeling my best, as I caught this strange stomach bug/ cold of nightmares combo. I’m finally able to breathe out of one nostril again….once in a while, so I’m getting better. It… Continue reading Resolve
I rarely feel angry. I feel sad or depressed or afraid. Hardly ever angry or mad. I don’t know what this means. Maybe I should google it, but I have a long standing promise with my therapist to not google any sort of health related things, including this with mental health Lately though, my mental… Continue reading Things that help lessen my anxiety
I have a friend who is constant light. Always looking at the bright side, re-framing things into a positive light. I wish I could be her when I grow up. She is always spreading the message, “You are enough.” I want to believe it. I whisper it to myself when Logan says that for Christmas… Continue reading On being enough
Last Sunday, after I posted my meal plan for the week, I received a text from the ex. It said: “L’s underwear do not fit. I have been paying child support, you fucking bitch.What have you been doing with the money? I’m tired of turning a blind eye to your lack of parenting. I’m done… Continue reading Is no reaction the best reaction?
I need to up my medication. Or change it. Or get a new brain where I am not anxious or depressed. I’m pretty good at pushing through when I have to. I am on my game. All smiles and encouragement and “way to go bud” at work. I laugh in the lunch room and tell… Continue reading Falling
So, in an effort for you to get to know me better, I am going to try and share twenty five things about me and my life. I am not certain I’m that interesting, but here goes nothing: My favorite color is turquoise. I have a six year old child who is my world. I… Continue reading 25 things
“So tell me what has happened in the last year since I saw you?” My therapist says opening her great book of mystery that she scribbles in when I say something that seems important to her. I can never tell why she picks what she does. Part of me wishes I could look at her… Continue reading Excessive Ruminations
Life Already in Progress 