Something happened this weekend where suddenly I could see things clearly. I regrouped and decided that I’m taking the wheel and driving my own damn life. So what about the other stuff. It’s not meant for me. So, I am starting with the very basics, self care. Taking time for myself, appreciating this life I… Continue reading Flip it and reverse it
In the past two weeks, I have probably worked out two times. I went from working out six days a week to basically no days a week. AGAIN. My depression was….is swallowing me up. The bags under my eyes grew and I was sleeping my life away when I wasn’t with the little one, but… Continue reading The Struggle is Real
On my post that I wrote about how I plan to change my life, I received a comment. It went EXACTLY like this, “This may be a dumb question, but as I was reading this blog, I noticed something. You say you are a hypochondriac, then u list OCD, Anxiety, depression etc, being a hypochondriac… Continue reading Labels are for jars…. and insurance companies
As I have mentioned a few times, I had a really difficult time getting started with working out again. I stopped for about a year and a half and I just could not get started again. Instead I would sit and have no energy. A side of severe clinical depression sure wasn’t helping me get… Continue reading Why I decided to change my life
I’ve spent a good deal of time reflecting lately. Thinking about my life and what it was and where it will be going. Uncertainty is never a friend to my anxiety, but I am trying my hardest to exact change. I am back in therapy. I am working out and eating clean. I am saving… Continue reading Surfacing
Hey there. I disappeared. It is what I do. Withdraw from the world. I don’t respond to texts, phone calls, or even blog to get my thoughts out. It is a strategy. A crappy one, but one I still use from time to time. I fell apart. Into tiny Justine pieces. I had court two… Continue reading Tiny Pieces
My one word this year to guide me is Light. This kid is my ultimate light. There have been many good things. I got a job tutoring for the school district which is well paying and really gratifying. I work with great kids. Also things have been going well for my little family. We are… Continue reading Life Lately
My daffodils are blooming. It promised to be an early spring. But tonight we are getting a snow storm. Four to eight inches of snow on top of all that new beauty and promise. Covering it, but hopefully not destroying it. I feel like that is my life lately. Most of the time on this… Continue reading Divorce Diaries// Spilling my guts
For the past few months, I have been very worried. And angry. So, so, so angry. Mostly because it was the middle of winter, and he cancelled my car registration and wasn’t and isn’t paying child support. I didn’t have enough money to get a car on the road…. the list goes on. I was blindingly… Continue reading Divorce Diaries// Dealing with Worry
So long, January 2016. You weren’t as kind to me as I hoped. To be completely and totally honest with you January, I almost disliked you about fifty percent of the time. Maybe 99% of the time. If this was a trial month, it was certainly full of trials. I feel like you were trying… Continue reading Good bye January
Life Already in Progress 